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Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tired

Normally I don't like to write about my feelings but I need to because I'm tired.  Physically and mentally. 
I'm just tired....

...of the rain.
...of my clothes
...of feeling angry at everything.
...of never feeling like my house is clean enough.
...of missing people.
...of feeling awful about my job.
...of not trusting people.
...of having a broken heart.  that keeps getting broken.
...of my stupid tire being flat. 
...of crying.
...of feeling old and gross.
...of wondering.
...of waking up worrying about things I can't control.
...of feeling guilty.
...of not having fun.
...of not feeling cute.
...of not believing.
...of facebook.
...of conversations that  never happen.
...of being jealous and insecure.
...of not blogging about anything.
...of never getting anything done for real.
...of not laughing as much as I used to.
...of not being funny.
...of my phone not ringing.
...of the stack of books I haven't read because I'm tired.
...of trying to pretend I'm not feeling any of these things.

How's that for keeping it real?  It is what it is.  This blog is supposed to be stuff I'd talk about with my friends, so that's what I'm feeling. 

I'm going to get some sleep.

4 comments:

Muttering Mama said...

I love you. Bunches and bunches. <3

I wish I could turn that all around for you. But I also know that you don't need me to. You'll get there. You're a strong, beautiful, amazing person...and this too shall pass. Keep on rockin', sister.

Angie said...

Boo :( :( I'm sorry. Let's get together soon to talk.

Sabrina said...

Allison, way to get it out..it's scary to share negative feelings and you are very brave my friend. I have to believe the universe rewards great people like you, things will get better...I promise!! Love ya, Sabrina

~ Mama said...

((hugs)) and baby steps will get you through.